The moments

The moments in life that take you breathe away,
The moments in life that make you think about someone that you love,
The moments that are more precious then anything,
The moments that soon become your greatest ally,
The moments in life that are to hard to handle,
The moments that make you cry,
The moments that make you laugh,
The moments that are made of love,

Every single moment, that's what your life is made up of will always make you stronger!

Ironic

It's ironic that when you are off Gods path and if you are having doubts about something. God is there in a sermon where ever you are and at whatever church you are going to, to tell you what you needed to hear most. God found me this last weekend at Danielle's church. It was really good the message that their pastor was giving that Sunday morning. It was all I could do not to cry in front of everyone. Avoid peoples eyes and just look down or ahead. Remember to blink. Was all I kept thinking about during the sermon to keep my eyes dry.

However that comes with a price because if you don't cry at that moment in time then you cry some other time at the most inconvenient time. Like tonight. Everything building up and it came rushing out of me while I was walking down evergreen to get to a friends house to make fun of Twilight before we watch the next one. Yes, walking!! I got out of my car before evergreen and walked from there to my friends house because I was so mad at Bill. I couldn't stand being in the car with him. From then on it has been fierce crying until pretty much now. I got home from dropping off the movie (I definitely wasn't going to be sitting around there to cry) and immediately went to my elliptical for 10-15 minutes and then to cleaning the kitchen and my stove. It was everything that I was worth to get the spots off my stove but by golly they came off. I like the way that I can now instead of going to the refrigerator go and doing something better for me. I don't wallow in the bad way anymore like I tended to do in High School and right out of high school I do something more organized and iconic, something with structure. So my house is very clean now hopefully it will remain that way for a long time. We'll see. I'm forcing myself to get more energy and not just laze around the house while something needs to be done.

I'm sure the ironical things of life will keep on coming. It will be interesting to see the way they come.

Ahh, The Information you can get from the internet

So thinking about the fact that I have hypothyroidism and that even though I can work out everyday and not see results beyond a certain point had me questioning many things. I thought about making an appointment with my doctor but I constantly forgot to call so I decided that I was going to try looking up hypothyroid diets. The do's and don'ts of what not to eat.

Horrified at what I found that I shouldn't be eating. I have to change everything that I eat pretty much. Goodbye carbs!!! Adios sugar!! Addveterzen dairy products!! Arrividirchi potatoes!! Aurevior pasta, desserts, sweet potatoes, regular, potatoes, meat, bread, white flour, rice, whole grains, fruit with high sugar content!!!!!!!

Okay I'm not sure about most people but that limits pretty much everything that I eat on a regular basis. However I'm going to be sane and actually try it out. Not eating those foods (well the meat I'm sorry but I have to have the occasional hamburger otherwise I really will die!!) I'm going to see if it works and I start losing more then the 5 lbs and actually get under 200lbs!!!! It is definitely going to be a struggle but at least hopefully it will be a good struggle!! Wish me luck. I'm definitely thinking like an atkins person right now!

Halloween 2009

Bill as a car salesman from the 1970's. Isn't it fabulous!!!

This is me as a mobster for Halloween!! I loved the gun but most of all I loved the fake eyelashes!!!

My Vacation..

I had Thursday through Tuesday off of this last week. It was such a blessed occasion because I didn't have anything planned besides cleaning my house which only halfway got done sadly enough. Everyday I hung out with Mama Griffith, Decaf addict missing her caffeine, or Bill. The last day was almost the best because I stayed at home and just crocheted and watched movies. (Not to say that hanging out with Mama Griffith wasn't fantastic either but it's different) I went shopping, dressed up as a mobster for Halloween, played with kids, went out to lunch and breakfast, went to the beach and had a picnic, and watched biggest loser. It was the nicest vacation that I've had for awhile. I love going places, far away places don't get me wrong but the packing is what gets to me and the driving. It was nice to sleep in and just be here at my own house and create my schedule again. I hope that sometime soon I can do it again.

One of those days....

You know when you have those days and your day just starts off with a sign about how the rest of the day is going to be like. Mine wasn't like that. Not today anyway. Mine didn't hit until I was at work and the little things started. Forgetting something that I was suppose to have and I left it across the room, having to unlock and lock the same cabinet 3 times because I forgot something else. The major breaking point was this evening when the head people called our branch and freaked out at Patty and Becca. Seriously they did nothing wrong. The people that called can only blame themselves for the fact that communication in the bank is their fault because they are the ones that decide everything. I'm so worn out by this day and the sad thing is that it happened in the last 20 minutes of my day but it has drained me and I'm starting to get a headache. Quite often I'm thinking of the days when I get to stay home and take care of kids in the future. Trying to squeeze out every penny to pay off our bills faster so I can stay home and the biggest thing I have to do in empty the dishwasher. Pray that it happens faster!!

On the Road Again

Well this year has been crazy. Bill and I have been moving around for about 4 months now on weekends without very many breaks. We've been to Packwood a number of times, Alaska, Canada, Utah, Idaho, Nevada, Washington so many times it's crazy, a cruise down the Columbia River, Biblecreek (Blaine) and Wheeler doing catering events, and of course Portland. The newest edition is Bend this weekend. It's awesome to come away this year and have things to be able to talk about. Half the times I forget that we have gone so many places. I think that I usually forget. I'm always wishing that things would happen to me but it finally dawned on me hello look at how many places I've gone to in the last 4 months. I finally stepped back and gasped. It left a huge smile on my face. I have to admit that it is very cool to be able to do things but there is definitely a downside to all this activity which I'm sorry to say that it isn't over until the end of November now. TIREDNESS, BEING WORNOUT, FEELING LIKE THERE IS NOW BREAK BETWEEN WORK AND THE WEEKENDS. But all this activity is going to come with a price and I'm beginning to think that that is okay. One day sometime I'm sure it will slow down and when it does I'll have some stories to tell.

Alaska in 2009

This is my favorite picture it isn't actually in Alaska. We were in the Yukon Territory. This lake is called Emerald Lake. Isn't it great.

This is coming back down the Tracy Arm from the glacier that was up there heading on our way to Juneau.

This is a little late but that's okay. Bill and I went to Alaska, by cruise, in the beginning of August with my parents and my grandparents. It was a lot of fun. It was a blast. It made me want to live there for the rest of my life. I have no idea why but I have a love affair with Alaska. I'm not sure if it's the cold (because I'm always running hot), or if it is because there is just so much nature and very isolated, or if it is just because it is absolutely breathtaking but needless to say I have a love affair with it. Now don't worry I'm not going to move there because Bill never would and because RJ wouldn't be able to follow me up. It's just fabulous. There aren't any words to describe it at all you just have to go there for yourself. I'm sorry I have so many more pictures but since I'm on dial up it takes forever. I'll try to post more when I have access to someones high speed internet.

Life has it's twist and turns

So life really does have it's twists and turns. I've been trying to get together with my best friend from high school for a good few weeks. I haven't seen her since her beautiful baby boy was just born in the hospital that night. So it has been about 4 months. Now mind you I have gone about a year without seeing her so considering that it hasn't been that long but still to long in book considering that we live only 2 hours away from each other.

There I was at work just watching Patty getting back from lunch my phone was vibrating. Surprisingly I heard it and the picture on the screen was no less then Danielle. It was amazing. I answered the phone and I was like perfect timing I'm going to lunch right now. So Danielle was on the line and was telling me that Josh was going to be in Salt Lake City next week for a few days and she didn't have to work. So would it be alright if I came down to stay there with you on Tuesday and Wednesday. I was like well let me look. Perfect the only thing that I have down on my schedule is the Biggest Loser!! So needless to say she is coming out here with her 4 month old son Aiden and staying with Bill and I.

I was starting to get very discouraged that I wasn't going to see her at all because both of our schedules are so full right now. But, Hallelujah, she is coming here next week!!!! I think that when she is here we can plan our next meeting hopefully!!!

Spider Solitaire

I'm sorry to say that I'm addicted to Spider Solitaire. I'm here on my computer and whenever I'm connecting to or connected with the internet I'm constantly in the process of playing a game. Since we have dial up still, it gives the best reward to pass the time while something loads on the internet. However dial up hasn't been extremely bad lately it's actually pretty fast, comparatively of course to DSL it isn't but we have no comparison when we are home so we just keep our games of plain solitaire for bill and spider solitaire for me up no matter what that way we have a game to play to pass the time.

Right now I'm in the middle of a new game while typing this message. It's such great fun thats all I have to say. One day we might change but it will be a little while.

Halloween

I'm so excited for this Halloween. Bill and I are watching mama griffiths kids complete with trick or treating and pumpkin carving. We have enticed Matthew to help us (one of our friends), well not so much help, but to come with us and have some fun. For the last few years we try to do something together the three of us or more. This year I'm have coerced Bill and Matthew that they need to dress up and come and trick or treat with me and the kids. I don't know what Bill is going to be but I'm thinking that there is a red neck costume at the store that I think that I will buy for him. Me, however I'm going to be a mobster. Complete with hat, ring, vest, and a gun (a fake one of course). However if I got my CHL I actually could have a real gun on me and visible. Haha. That tends to freak me out when I'm watching kids or even around kids so I most likely wouldn't do it anyway. So back to the story at hand. Only a month and a week and a half away and I'm already getting the buzz and trying to find some really cool things to keep the 3 entertained for hours on end. I don't think that it will be hard because really I could just run around in a circle and they would just follow me and climb and attack me. We have such a great relationship. I get to be a kid again and its fabulous.

The New Biggest Loser Season

So tonight was the 2nd episode of the Biggest Loser!!! It is so much better then the last few seasons of the Biggest Loser. However there are some interesting differences or maybe not differences but its just showing up within more people and sooner. The crying is almost unbearable!!! It is just so painful to watch guys cry then girls. I mean I hate when I see Bill cry its almost like I can't take it. Growing up in this society has taught men not to cry and so as a woman when you see other women cry its not a huge deal and you feel more sympathy and you know for the most part how to help them. But when a man cries there is the chemical reaction that goes off in my head and it makes me laugh. Not that they shouldn't cry but in the society where men aren't supposed to cry it's just built in that when a man does cry it's like there less then a real man which in fact they aren't but it is just hard to bear and watch. I don't know what to do when a man cries because we treat men and women differently. Therefore when I watch the Biggest Loser and a man cries my physical reaction isn't pity or feeling bad it's laughter. I know that it's mean but I just can't help it.

I'm glad that the plot is different this year they really needed to do something different. I hope that they do some fun challenges within this years season. I can't wait until the next episode!

Working out

So I have been working out steadily for about 5 months now. Yahoo. It's been really nice to have my once was walking partner who is now my jogging partner back in town for the last 5 months. It has been extremely nice. We do Pilates in the morning for about 20 minutes and jog at night for 2.5-3.5 miles every other day and walk the other 2 days with weights.

I work with an amazingly athletic girl who was my inspiration to start jogging. She can jog 21 miles at one time. Crazy I know. So I decided that I would start jogging and talked it over with my walking partner. So off we went. Sadly I could barely make it to the stop sign down the road and I had to walk the rest of the way around the loop. Slowly but surely we made it 1 mile before Rj went away on vacation for 2 weeks. There it was our first hurdle. So I asked Renee (the girl I work with) to jog with me. Boy that was craziness. We did 2 miles that first day!!!! She had to actually stand behind me and push me up the final hill that lasted forever. It was the most killer jog I had been on. The next day that I was with her we did a different route but still 2 miles. Slowly but surely these past 5 months we've gotten to the point of being able to jog 4 miles consistently if we wanted to. We have decided lately that we needed something different within our workout so we decided everyTuesday and Thursday we were going to walk with weights. We started with 2.5 lbs and have moved it up to 5 and 10 lb weights. Which still don't make my arms hurt but thats ok. We will still burn more calories.

We went on vacation this last week and we unfortunately didn't work out the entire time that we were in Utah/Nevada. A little disappointing but nice. However it was amazing to come back and start up everything again. Yesterday we did pilates and it hurt!!! The jog that we did was 2.5 miles and it was painful as well but the last .1 miles we sprinted until the end of her road. So that is the latest thing that we are going to be doing. We are going to sprint .1miles and slowly push it out so that we can sprint the whole 2.5 miles (hehe). I think that it will take at least another 5 months or more to get to that point but at least it's another goal to push towards.

Not My Thing All The Time

So I know that I'm just using this thing lately to just talk about my problems and vent and for the people that actually read it I'm sorry. I truly am but it's my only real venting system that truly makes me feel better. That and nothing exciting happens in my life on a regular basis.

So I use to have movie nights at my house every Sunday. That was fine and I got used to it but then something happened. I changed. Really I got amazingly depressed and I didn't want a lot of people at my house all the time. So I stopped having them and also another triggering affect for it was that someone said well you don't have kids so its the best place to have them. I have kids and I can't have the TV up loud because it would wake them up was her excuse for not having them at her house sometimes.

I can't tell you how much it bothered me but at the time I think that I was slightly disturbed but in the mind set of just pushing my feelings back(not a good thing to do). So now I'm even more in the mindset that I don't want to do them because of that one person that thinks that I'm the one that should always be putting them on because I'm the only one that doesn't have kids. She has made similar statements about being a parent and I'm not. So I'm in the mood that I really don't want to have girl nights anymore besides for the few friends that would actually come to spend time with me and not make me feel worse. I know that she is probably not doing it on purpose let alone she probably doesn't even know that she is hurting my feelings and that I should tell her but I don't want to have that conversation and confrontation about it. I've done that to much lately that I'm tired of crying and talking.

This last Saturday I got back from Utah at about 10:40pm. Sunday Bill and I slept in and that was great. We got up at 10ish and then I went to Fred Meyers and Costco to do some grocery shopping. By that evening I was even more drained. I haven't done anything besides paying bills and the laundry which is still unfolded in the laundry basket. I then get a call from her asking if I was going to have a girls night. I replied no. To that she asks well can you? I said no again. Maybe I'm just reading into this to much but really if you want a movie night that bad have it at your house and invite people there. I really don't care if you have kids or not it's the same thing no matter what if you want a movie night then have it at your house don't except that that one person is always going to have it every week. Besides it's funner to move it around from house to house that way not one person is doing it and having to keep there house clean at all hours of the day and week. I personally like not having to clean the house all the time.

I know that I'm venting but it has made me feel better. I'll let you know when the next movie night is going to be.

Utah Salt Flats

This week we went on the long awaited trip to the Utah Salt Flats. Bill and a few other friends have had this trip planned for about 2 years now and it finally happened. I'm sorry to say that it was a let down of sorts. Not the entire week but a few days and specific events.

First off the drive down was good we changed time zones a few different times surprisingly. It went back and forth between states that we went through. We got there at 11:30 to the KOA at West Wendover, NV. Walking up to the door of the office we noticed that there was a black widow spider, yes a black widow, on the door. Greg instantly brought up his flip flop and killed it. Not a good start at staying at a campsite. We had our instructions taped to the door of where our campsite was and the code to get into the bathroom. (Never had that before. I felt kind of cool having a code to the bathroom.) So there we are trudging slowly along to the campsite. It is down the road and right there. We are next to a wooden fence and there is a section formed by railroad ties to say where you have to put your tents. We all looked at it hoping that all 3 tents were going to fit in the space. It was very small. Before we put up our tents (since we found 1 black widow) I took a lantern and ran it across the back fence to see if there were any other creatures there that needed to be killed. Yep, there was. We found another Black Widow spider. Greg again took off his flip flop and killed it. It was most disconcerting to find 2 black widows not knowing that they were going to be there waiting for us. There were also big bats that were flying about. Quickly we put up our tents, Bill and my tent had to go in sideways in order for all 3 to fit in the site. Soon we were off to sleep alarms ready for 6:30 am.

6:30 rolls around and we get up slowly (Bill and I a little late) and hop into the truck and hope that we can find a Starbucks from the city of Wendover. I forgot to mention. On the way there to Wendover as we were driving there was a nice glow of lights in the distance. A little later we found out it was our little town of Wendover. There were about 6 big casinos neon lights everywhere welcoming us to Wendover. The best casino name is The Red Garter. Hehe. You know thats where they have interesting people. Anyway, back to the story. We finally get into the truck and try to find a Starbucks. We know that there is one in town. It was actually in the Golden Nugget, a casino!! We get inside and there is a long line with only 1 guy working and taking orders and making the drinks. Ugh. We get our coffees and off we go to the salt flats about 10 miles down the road. It is so much different then I expected. I've seen it in the movies and never thought it was really that white but it is very, very white. Sunglasses required. We find out that the Salt is really wet and we can't race on it so they were just teching the cars and then we had to come back tomorrow for the race. So the guy comes over and techs the car and it was about noon finishing up we decided to head to Salt Lake City to do some shopping. Shopped we did. It was fabulous.

The next day we got up again at 6:30 and off we went to Starbucks again. Again the same guy was working doing all the orders. We got to the salt and got to drive to the pit area. Drivers meeting was at 9 and then pushed back to 10. So Rj and I took a walk looking at all the cars and people there. Which I'm sorry but Hollywood has lied to us!!! There were absolutely no good looking guys or the track hoes anywhere. They were all old people and there wives. So sad. Bill and Greg go get in line which is about 2.5 miles away from the pits and leave Rj and Mat and I at the pits to read and do whatever. By 3pm no one had raced yet and the people that were in charge said to go back to the pits and they would let them know when to come back. Apparently they were having printing issues. Apparently they couldn't get the names and numbers to print on the piece of paper. Personally I think that they should have just taken a pen and paper and written it down. At 3:30 they got the call to go back to the staging area so off they went and waited in line some more. They finally started to let people race and said they were keeping the salt flats open until 7 to let people do there calibration runs. At 7 Greg was up to the front of the line ready to go and they closed the salt down!!!! So Bill and Greg waited in line for 10 hours and they got to do nothing!!!! How horrendous is that. When we got back to camp I again took the lantern and went along the fence to see if there were anymore spiders. Yep I found 3 Black Widow Spiders. I got to kill them this time so it was Greg 2 and Nyssa 3. While we were sitting around there was a cockroach that came out of hiding. That was the final straw for me. I slept in the cab of the truck. I could handle Black Widows and Bats but not Cockroaches!!

Next day, Friday!!! The last day at the salt flats that we had. We had to get Bill and Greg through the line to get in at least 2 or 3 runs in. Almost impossible. Since they cut off Greg at the very front of the line they let him go first so one down. He waited in line again for 2 hours because the timing place was so exceptionally slow they couldn't or wouldn't send more cars through faster. They apparently haven't heard the words walkie-talkies before. It took 5 - 10 minutes for each car to get through from start to finish!! So long in between cars. So much waiting around time. Finally Greg got up to the line and did his second pass. He hit the speed limiter at around 120mph!!! We didn't know that it was on there. He was supposed to go 130mph. Argh!! They brought the car back to the pits and were able to disconnect the speed limiter. Bill got it teched again and was off back to the line. Bill finally got up to the line at around 3:30 and was able to do his first pass. He got 133mph and then it stalled out and as he crossed the line it read him as going 127mph. Ugh. He was out of gas. So he went and got 2 gallons of race gasoline which I'm so sad that it cost $10/gallon. It was frightening to think about. Bill got back to the front of the line at around 5:30ish and off he went hoping that was the only problem about why the car stalled out. Apparently it was not. He got up to 140mph and it died again making him cross the line at 117mph. Double Arghhhh!! We decided to leave then and go out to a cheap buffet and play the penny slots.

Well we went to the first casino to find out how much the buffet was $25!!!!! That is atrocious. So we moved on and on everything was $25 dollars. We finally ended up at the Golden Nugget and went to there steakhouse and had the best meal of that day!! We took our $1 and played the penny slots for about an hourish. It was the best night that we had had all week long.

Saturday was the day that we were coming home. It went well until our trailer blew a tire. Luckily we were close to Hermiston so we found a Les Schwab and had the tires replaced on the one side and off we went down the road to home! We finally got in at 10:30. It was nice to be home.

I think that thing that bothered me most was the fact that we didn't have any nights out besides the two. Otherwise it was come home from the salt, quickly shove down dinner, and then immediately sleep. The other thing that bothered me was the fact that the organization was atrocious! It was the poorest put together event I have ever been to in my life!!! I won't be going back there for another few years. I need some space between the two events to get me to go back there. Anyway, I think that I'm done ranting now.

Friendships

Do you ever get the feeling that you are the only one trying in a relationship? I'm to that point right now. Not with my marriage but with a certain friend. Obviously I know that as time goes by people change and I'm not sure if it's me that has changed or my best friend that has changed. I'm sure it's a lot of both but you know how much to I have to pester her to get a date to get together. I have been commenting on her facebook wondering when we can get together for the past few weeks. Waiting for an answer still.

The last time that I saw her was a little of 3 months now which isn't the longest that I haven't seen her so I guess I should be glad about that but it's getting rather annoying to have her come to some decision about when to get together. I'm to the point that I just want to stop bugging her. I don't know what to do. I feel like I'm the one that always has to go out to Vancouver to visit her that it's almost to big of an inconvience for her to travel to the coast. Maybe it's her work schedule maybe she only gets a month schedule so maybe I'm just being paranoid who knows. But argh!!!! I want to see her and I want to see what she is up to lately since I barely ever get to see her. So I'm sure that this doesn't make sense my head is a little jumbled together right now. Argh!!!

Drowning, Drowning, Drowning.

Drowning, Drowning, Drowning.
In a sea that is to open for me.
Can't see the way out, Can't see the land anymore.
Drowning, Drowning, Drowning.
Only one way out, Just have to speak.
The mind enters the dazed look.
Drowning, Drowning, Drowning.
Letting the words out are the only problem.
Facing the guilt and hurt is the next step.
Drowning, Drowning, Drowning.
Just looking for the land ahead.
Waiting for the gold light to step back into.
Drowning, Drowning, Drowning.
Soon, Soon, it will be done.
Soon, Soon, all will be better.
Drowning, Drowning, Drowning.
Just pray, Just pray, Just Pray.

A black cloud is above me right now but all will be better slowly, slowly. Just waiting for my time. To stop running away and dealing with the pain. No books or movies to slow me down just me and God. We have a lot to deal with that I have been avoiding for quite sometime. I'm not fine but I'll be getting better just see. I'm hoping that I will become myself again and be happy again like I'm not right now. Just pray!!!

Cough, Cough, Coughing

I've been coughing for a week now which is really throwing my groove off at night controling the sleep that I'm not getting at all. Last night was the worst I actually had to get out my reading pillow and lay propped up against it all night which has preceded to hurt my back as well. I'm currently a mess right now. Eventually I hope that I won't be coughing on my cruise because that's not going to make it any fun at all.

Big Black Bug

The big black bug wandered through the fog of the morning air. He was surrounded by his family in the midst of the grass of his home. Every few days his home turns into a tornado when a huge contraption is over head and cuts down the grass of his home. In the winter time it is much better the evil contraption doesn't run as often. The big black bug wandered from his home to his friends home of few steps away to see if the big yellow bug wanted to go on an adventure with him. The big black bug and the big yellow bug set out together going on the long and hard journey towards the massively huge mountain where there was supposedly a mountain full of food. Legend has it that anyone who can climb the entire mountain to the top without dropping dead would get what the most desired. To be able to eat forever. There had only been two other bugs that had actually made it up the gigantic mountain and lived to tell about it later. They had come back so ingorged with food that they almost died from overstuffing themselves. They two bugs had told them that it was worth. So there they were at the bottom of the mountain looking up at the top thinking well it won't be so bad. The started off at a faster pace then they usually would have. They decided that they would run up the mountain at first until they got past all the easy parts and then once they hit the tricking spots they would slow down. Soon enough they had reached the tricky parts slowly making the crawl over the big rocks that at any moment could decided to move and crash down on them killing them instantly. Sure enough as the big yellow bug was climbing on the last big rock it started to rock. It teetered for a moment and crashed down just as the big yellow bug jumped of it. By mid morning they were halfway up the mountain. They had heard that once you past the big rocks you then had to watch out for the other animals. Both bugs started up at a faster pace again. Suddenly a huge snake slithered in front of them. They stood so still that they looked like they were statues at a musuem of bugs. The snake slithered by and disappeared as fast as it showed up. They breathed a sigh of relief. They kept going up and up. The whole colony looked so far away from up there. There eyes could barely see there homes anymore. Four more steps and the big black bug and the big yellow bug were standing on the top of the mountain. Splat!! A hand came down and killed them instantly. Throwing them in cemetery of bugs that didn't make it.

City Girl the movie

Do you ever feel like your life is a movie? I do sometimes and really it would be such a boring movie. I've always thought that any movie where there is a girl that can do amazing things like karate or is really brave I've wanted to be like them. Not that I have changed to do any of the things that they have done.

My life has been pretty boring I haven't ever done anything really exciting and crazy. My list of things that I have participated in and done isn't very long. However, I have flown a plane, gone down a zipline, gone across a rope bridge, and been to 24 states. I guess you could say that I've expierenced a lot but still that doesn't mean very much when you think in movie terms and plots. I've never been crazy so I don't know which plot take to a movie. Have y0u ever done anything crazy? What would your movie be like?

Lost in Austin

For those of you who have watched the movie I'm sorry but it is the best title for this blog. RJ posed the question. Which character do you think you are most like for the book/m0vie Pride and Prejudice?

I think that I am most like Jane. Her quietness, her thinking the best of everyone that she comes into contact with, and doesn't show her feelings very often. I'm the same way as her. I tend to think the best of everyone until they personally do something to me. I'm pretty quiet in most respects unless I'm around people that I know really well then I branch out and become a little crazier but still reserved. I also try to not show my feeling to just anyone. However people that are close to me can usually tell when something is askew. I have really enjoyed the movies that I have watched lately and eventually I will try to read the book again to become completely lost in austin.

Today!!!!

Today was a great day!!!!Bill, Mama Griffith, her kids, and I went and scaled a mountain today. It was a great feat for all the children. They are 6, 4, and 3. The 3 year old especially I think. To climb Neah-kah-nie is a great feat in itself for anyone but especially for anyone as young as them to climb the entire mountain without breaking down or having any fits! Crazy, huh. It took 2 hours to go from the bottom to the top. The ascent was very beautiful. We went all the way around the mountain or really went straight up one side and down the other side. With many cliffs each child had a designated partner to hold onto and to watch. I do have to say that it was nerve racking to watch the kids climb up the last of the cliff to the top. We stayed at the top eating chips that the nice and wonderful mama griffith to pack before heading down the other side to the bottom. I hope that you enjoyed the pictures.

Memorial Day Weekend Part 2

I forgot to put this picture in the first post which is actually down below. It is oh I don't know about 10 or 20 or 30 miles up to it and there this sign is in the middle of the forest and it makes me think that there is a top secret agency up there. As I was snapping the picture I was thinking that as soon as I did watch there would be black jeeps and helicopters all around, guns drawn and not waiting to ask questions.

Memorial Day Weekend

So this is a view of Buck Mountain you can see from the ocean all the way to the lights of Portland (at night anyway)!

As we were clearing the path so that the truck could get through the opening better we came across this view. Beautiful, huh!

Bill and I doing a self portrait. See the mountains in the background.

Look I'm standing on a cliff. Ok really it is slightly a cliff but it goes down about 20 to 30 ftish and then it goes into a landing. But it is an awesome picture!

Aren't I cute!

Ok so I have no idea what my husband is doing!

This is the grade the we had to climb up because our truck couldn't finish going up it. It doesn't look like much really but it is about a 10% incline maybe more maybe less. I don't really know if those are the right measurements. All I know is that it is extremely steep.

This is Saddle Mountain from the way back down from Buck Mountain.

This was such a good weekend. I didn't really mind the tourists because I wasn't around. It was a beautiful weekend and our exploring nature brought us out to explore and go where a lot of people haven't been or even heard of before.

Parasitic Germs

So I found out by Mama Griffith that there is this person, I'll call him the Germ that is hopping from blog to blog posting notes to check out some video on YouTube about religion. Really if you are going to post a comment on someones blog comment about the blog not about something comepletely opposite from the subject. So if you are the germ please don't post something on my blog if you can help it or if you have to post something comment on what I wrote about. Please stop being a parasite!!!!! I'm not going to view anything that you send to me.

Books

I think that the best creations are the ones that you yourself personally think up. However some profound writers take you to a place that you continuously think about and wish that you were there among the characters taking in the action yourself. Some people have that special gift to write a book that envelopes you into a cocoon and you don't get out until the book is done. I'm often left wondering about the characters. Do they continue to have the happy ending or does something else happen. Did they get married? Did they have any children? Did some other plot take place to make the hero into an even greater hero? Movies have the same affect on me but of course they don't last as long because you can finish a movie in a couple of hours where as depending on how thick the book is it takes a couple of days for me to finish it. Books also give you the chance to put your own pictures inside of it. Detailing all of the characters, there personality traits, where they live, the landscape, the time. It just really makes me want to write a book. It inspires me. One day hopefully I will put pen to paper or fingers to keys and write a book out that will be able to hook someone in and trap them inside a cocoon until they have finished reading it.

Morse Code

I think that codes and code words are simply electrifying. They astound me. I have so much fun trying to figure out the code and deciphering it which I used to be pretty good but know I must say that I'm not very good anymore. Know that I have read The Mysterious Benedict Society it has intrigued me to figure out Morse code and actually learn it. There for I have learned it somewhat. I am still trying to remember all the dashes and dots and remember which letter or number they belong to. For you fellow code people this is for you and I hope that you can read this. For the people who don't know it look it up it is really interesting.

.. ..-. -.-- --- ..- -.-. .- -. .-. . .- -.. ...- . .-. -.-- --. --- --- -.. .-.-.-

.. .- -- ... - .. .-.. .-.. .-.. . .- .-. -. .. -. --. - .... --- ..- --. .... .-.-.-

I hope that it made sense to you. Have fun deciphering it.

Book Review

The Mysterious Benedict Society is a great spy novel for grown ups and kids alike. It tests your mind with all the questions it poses. Which sadly to say that I don't know how to pronounce most of the words within the question. The reasons why I liked it was the fact that it was fast paced (I thought), it talked about Morse code, and there were spies within the book. The title is what grabbed me and told me I had to get it as well as the cover picture. Mama Griffith showed it to me and I was hooked. The only downfall that it had was one tiny little part, really it was only 2 word that were said that have me baffled and little wierded out to the point that I'm not sure about the ending. Sad isn't it. Two words that you read that are so profound in the way that you think it possibly distorts the ending so that you think only about those two little words until you practically drop dead with exhaustion. I think that it could happen those two little words but it is just mind boggling. Anyway, now that I have throughly confused you I think that it is worth the time to read it. If you do read it and get to the very end you'll know which two words I'm talking about I want to know what you think of it. Maybe I'm just crazy. Anyway, Keep Reading!!

Isn't she so cute

I love the fact that she is very pregnant and huge. All growing up she has been stick skinning and now look at her. She is so big and cute.

She is having a boy his name will be Aiden Michael and she is due on June 10th. I'm looking forward to having another nephew not that we are related by any means but we go way back to junior high. I'm looking forward to this new adventure in life with many of my friends. I'm slowly becoming ok with everyone around me being pregnant or just having babies. It's hard to not have one myself because I want one so badly but Bill and I are looking into it and we might have some answers by next monthish so that will be nice.

I'm excited for all the new mothers that I know and all the mothers that have any children that are not necessarily babies anymore. Mother's day is coming up and I hope that everyone has a good mother's day!!!

I'm Finally Done

So I ave finally finished the blanket that I have been working on for the past year but really only the last couple months. I have been procrastinating the last few inches but finally on Sunday early morning, 4 o'clock to be somewhat exact I finished it. I had been up all morning and all night because I couldn't sleep so I cleaned the our hidious house and then finished the blanket. I cleaned the kitchen till it was spotless, the living room, dining room till they were all spotless and then I did all the laundry folded and put away till it was all done. Suprisingly, my husband, (i never knew how hard a sleeper he was) slept through the whole thing including me putting all the clothes away in the bedroom and even vaccumming the living room. I love him. Finally after being so exhausted from all the work that I did it was about 5 in the morning when I finally dosed off to sleep on the couch. But alas I finally finished all of my projects. It felt good to get them all done.

Lily Crewe

Lily Crewe was my name and being an agent was what she did best and the only thing she had ever known about. Graduating for high school valedictorian, moving on to college gonig to Yale and Harvard both and graduating valedictorian from there as well was where she was snatched up and was offered her first ever job. The most secret agency she had never heard of before. They had the suits, the cars, the power, everything that most agencies have but even more so. One plus is that they didn't have as much paperwork as the other agencies. Her first day on the job as well and the next two months were purely training. Physical training, mental training, job training on where you were going to fit in which job you could and would have within the agency. Two months though with no outside communication with anyone or anything. They made you int0 a machine. Working out the mind and body until you could do your job without thinking anymore and that made it as natural as breathing. My first assignment out of the training was just informational more then anything. Knowing your enemy first and foremost was the code that you lived by. Nothing was more important. I had to pick a subject in government and stick to him like peanut butter stuck to the roof of your mouth. My first subject had to be someone that was someone of importance. Not just important, star quality, it was someone that was important for the agency. Not only did you have to follow the person you had t0 talk with them, become close to them, find out everything about them. David Detrick was my person. I stuck to him like peanut butter until I knew everything about him. Where he was born, how many girlfriends he had, what he did at 2 am at the bar on Monday early morning, how many places his has been in his life, who he was working with, everything. Reports were easily done one briefing. Everything was discussed everything talked about and worked into detail. Soon enough after many years I was higher up working on even more top secret assignments overseas pretending to be someone of importance trying to bring out criminals of the highest nature.

continued in the next post because I can't think anymore.

Life

Have you ever wonder about your life. Is it ever going to get better? Is something exciting ever going to happen? I think that I think about it a little too much. Always wondering is the CIA or someone in an even more secret organization going to come and pick me up out of this small town and make my life a dream come true. Obviously I love my husband and I think that if someone actually did come out of nowhere to snatch me up for an important mission I'm not sure that I could actually go I think that I would miss him to much and the thought of leaving him is always a hard thing to do. However in my fantasies I do go and I do have such fun going on assignments and carrying out the ever threatening and dangerous assignments. Of course my name isn't my name I have an alias and everything is different with how I look besides my hair color, my eyes, hands and feet. My name is Lily, Lily Crewe and I'm a secret agent for a top secret agency that no one knows about and no I'm not telling which one!!

Unmentionable

There is one thing that I would love to blog about and everything but it is the one thing that I can't talk about or really say anything about. Either the thing that your going to write about is about a person or people that read your blog, 0r there are situations that you can't write about because those certain people read your blog. It is then that dive into y0ur own personal diary that you have't written in for about a hundred years. Blogs are nice because y0u can write about your days and what happens in them but then on the other hand you can't truely write about the things that are bugging you the most to share your feelings with the world. However most people don't like reading about the depressing things the tend to want to read the fun sometimes dramatic things. Anyway, my nonsense has gone on long enough so farewell.

24th Birthday

I know that it is 6 days late but its nice to be 24 now. One more year and I will be able to rent a car by myself and my insurance will go down. My birthday was one of the best I have ever had if not the Best. Bill drove me to work which is always nice. Next thing I know is that it is nine o'clock and time to unlock the doors. To my surprise Bill is standing there in front of a door with a coffee. My next surprise was Bill bringing me flowers. It was a beautiful bouquet. My lunch was wonderful Bill went down to the deli got me sandwiches and a Henry Weinhards Rootbeer and took me to our lookout which was fabulous! I loved it. My last surprise was steak and potatoes, I was amazingly good and I had such a wonderful time. Bill did such amazing things that now I'm trying to think of what to do for Bill for his birthday to give him an amazing time that he gave me.

24TH Birthday

My 24th birthday is in 7 days and I'm so excited. Bill and I are going to a movie on Saturday with any friends that are going to sh0w up. Then Bill and I are going to do something that he planned out on my actual birthday. I have no idea what is going to happen but I know it will be exciting. I'm looking forward to it a lot.

The First Autocross

So this weekend is the first Autocross of the season! Now I don't go to race cars because I just don't think that it is great fun for me. What I go to do is help out in timing and just to see people. Our group is so small that a few of us have become really close. It is more of a social gathering to me then a car race. However since it is going to be close to my friends house I'm not sure if I am going to actually make it to the autocross. Bill tends to leave me to do other things so I can't really hang out with him and there is a person there that will probably be in timing to make my life miserable because we are trying out a new timing system which I should be there to use it but I'm not sure I can handle being around that person in timing. She'll probably tell me what to do and how to use the system which I'm not dumb I can probably figure it out myself but you know I might just have to deal with it. However I just haven't made up my mind to go or not. The thrill for me is the staying with our friends. I am very excited to stay with them and enjoy a weekend together.

First Time Mothers

First time mothers are an interesting phenomenon. Overprotective, over exhausted, afraid to do anything wrong with their children, afraid to drop them, etcetera. Now what I have noticed and heard is with the first baby the mother's tend to freak out. Now I'm not saying that I wouldn't because I'm sure I would do the same faux pas but some are just hilarious. First time mothers tend to wrap their newborns in too many blankets or clothes to where they sweat and the mother freaks out because they are sweating and why. Others are overly cautious with everything baby, you can't hold my baby until you have washed your hands at least twice.

They don't want to take their baby anywhere afraid that something will happen to them and then freak out that their newborn is going to get sick and catch a cold, getting some sort of disease from the outside world. It's funny to watch new mothers with their children. Being on the outside you notice things that mothers don't know that they are doing. Of course I can say that now not being a mother myself besides to my 3 animal children (2 dogs and a cat). I'm sure though when I do have a child I'll do the same faux pas things. I think that my faults are going to be horribly overprotective and concerned to make sure that they don't hurt themselves so who am I to judge what any mother has done with their child.

Saturday.

I know that this is a tad late and that's a travesty but it's now or never. Saturday. The only saving grace to what happened on Saturday that slightly saved it was the fact that I at least got to hang out with Mama Griffith all day long. In hopes of going to the Seattle zoo (which I have never been to), getting her car back that only took 3 weeks to finish, and going to a lot of Starbucks only two out of the three happened. The beginning of the day started out good. On the way up to Mama Griffith's mother-in-laws to meet her sister-in-law to get her Volvo back we stopped at Starbucks and Walmart those 2 stops was going to have us be late, to our appointment time of 11, by only 30 minutes. Which was all fine because Mama Griffiths sister-in-law, I will give her the name of Molly that way I can stop writing sister-in-law, is usually late herself all the time. We got up to the house of mama griffiths mother-in-law, Mona, with Molly not there yet so we were thinking great at least we didn't make her wait around or have to sit there a long time. A big dark cloud was a foot. We walked in the door and Mona said Hi how about making some cookies. Both Mama Griffith and I were like we don't have time to make cookies if we are going to go to the zoo in a couple of minutes to a half an hour. Well it turned out to be 4 hours later that Molly showed up!!! 4 hours late!!!! That would have been a curtesy call to say that yes indeed I left an hour late and you should go to the zoo and I will meet you there. I almost died. If the 4 hours late wasn't bad enough there was a weird vibe that came from staying with Mona. There weird vibe between Mona and Mama Griffith was almost hard to take. It's like when there needs to be something said but no one is going to say it but they should to clear the air. It was that feeling. Now back to the 4 hours being late by Molly. Now granted that Molly also has 3 kids but to be 4 hours late I don't think so. She said that she took 4 breaks between her home and Monas to go to the bathroom. Now I asked Mama Griffith how long it usually takes a regular person to drive, 2 and a half hours. Now considering she left at 9:30 she should have been an hour late as it was to be there by 12. However she didn't get there until 3:30!! Each break we figured out that she took was 45 minutes long. Now I don't have kids and even though I don't I have my own ideas of how long a break should be maybe at the most 5 minutes if her son pied on the side of the road maybe 20 minutes if she had to take all of her sons into the bathroom at a place. I think that I would be a mean mother and make then pee on the side of the road if I had that many children and only one had to go to the bathroom. I have also talked to other mothers and they couldn't believe the 45 minute bathroom breaks either. So now the question comes up whether or not something else was a foot. Needless to say we switched cars loaded up the kids and took off back home. We made it about a quater of the way or less when the one kid who had his heart set on the zoo began to cry. We felt really horrible for him. The entire way up to Monas house was a constant question of are we going to the zoo and are we at the zoo yet which made having to tell him no we aren't going to the zoo today that much harder to bear. We ended up getting home at 8 as aposed to probably 6 or 7 or maybe even 8 depending on how long we stayed at the zoo. There was my tale. Like I said the only saving grace that was there was spending time with Mama Griffith.

Hans Solo VS Luke Skywalker

I think that Luke is the best compared to Hans Solo. Although I have always had a thing for the main character and hero of any movie. There is always so much bravado and courage that comes with being the main character. I think the real reason I really like Luke Skywalker and any other hero that comes out of a movie is because I wish that I had the strengths especially when someone evil like the emperor comes knocking at my door I could beat the cramp out of him and live to tell the tale. Luke Skywalker sure might in the first 2 movies be a little unsure of himself ask for a lot from people or in the case of mama griffiths blog be a whiner but all in all he was trying to find himself. For the most part when you are trying to find yourself and find power within yourself to go and beat the Emperor and Darth Vader wouldn't you whine a little bit. I'm sure I would. Hans Solo sure he has chewbacca but that is all he has in my book and the cool ship. Therefore Hans Solo vs Luke, Luke would definately win.

Smile and Laugh Always!

This is my last post for today so.....it will be short and sweet!!

Be kind to neighbors and friends.
Drink when absolutely necessary to take the edge off really bad days.
Smile often to make any day better.
Laugh even more often to live a long and enjoyable life.
Learn new things every day.
Take time to appreciate the small things in life.
Don't get angry easily.
Take your time on anything you are doing.
Realize a dream and fulfill it.
Go on a least one road trip every year.

Have a wonderful day and make the most of everything you have.

Cars!!!!

So right now my husband and I have 2 trucks, 1 jeep, 5 cars. Sound extreme to you. Yes I think so. 2 of the vehicles aren't ours however. We are storing them for almost a year and I have been the patient nice wife for that long for not telling Bill to get them out of our garage or else. However I think that I have reached my breaking point and I'm going to blow up at him either that or I will be devious and vicious to my husband and get rid of the cars without is knowledge. That would be a little harder to swallow though. I really don't think that I could do it though. I talk tough but I have no uphm behind my words. I will just tell Bill to get rid of the cars or he will have a very unpleasant wife to deal with until he gets rid of them (really takes them back to their original owners). It would be different if they paid us to store them but they aren't therefore I have been patient enough. Now you may be thinking 8 vehicles pushed down to 6 vehicles is still to much but the other ones I can deal with. One we just have to drag to the dump which won't take to long the others are all mine. The Jeep is really cool. One truck we are going to part out so we will eventually get rid of the whole thing. The other we have to have. The cars one is a 1966 mustang which is my dream car and the other is my daily driver subaru. However I will let you know if I pass my breaking point and tow 3 cars away without Bill's knowledge.

Pictures

Being good at taking pictures would be such a great thing to do. I really want to take a class on how to take a correct picture. I have some really good pictures in my house and on my camera right now but to actually take a class on it would be pretty awesome. I really would like to aspire to being a great photographer maybe not for a living but just for fun. At least having the knowledge to take pictures would come in handy in everyday life. I never knew what I wanted to do for a living only knowing that I liked to do specific things. I love flying, taking pictures, crime investigation, the human mind (psychology) and being a spy. Flying would be pretty cool. I really enjoyed flying a plane which I was very fortunate to have been able to do. Crime investigations would be pretty cool to do trying to find out who did it and why. If it was on purpose or not. The human mind has always interested me in the way that it works and in the strange ways that that diseases come about. I really thought about doing a double major in criminology and psychology. Then lastly but not least taking pictures for a living. Although I would really have to get better that way I could to weddings and senior pictures. I would have to become extremely good for taking pictures of weddings. It's a couples best day of their life so far and to take pictures of that moment would be very hard and indescribable to take the perfect pictures so they remember what went on on that special day of theirs. I think that I will look into classes in the future for picture taking. It sounds like so much fun to me. What is there that you have wanted to do that you haven't yet?

Saturday

Walmart is so much fun to go to because of all the great cheap things that you can buy. Usually I only buy movies from Walmart but today I bought some cars. Yes, yes cars in fact!! Really they were toy cars that were for some great little kids that I adore.

That was the middle of my day. I started out waking up at 5 to go to Seattle with a friend to trade cars then to go to the zoo. So therefore, I woke up at 5 left by 7 and then started the arduous task of driving in the passenger seat of the Subaru up the coast to eventually hit I-5 to go up to Seattle. We stopped at my friends mother in laws to meet her sister in law to trade cars and that is where we are now. I am killing time writing this blog because the sister in law is running a little late. Unfortunately since she is running late we won't be going to the zoo but that is ok. It is always fun going on a slight road trip up into Washington.

So what is in store for you this wonderful day? Anything exciting or wonderful? Tell me about it....Yes the 3 people that actually read my blog!! Answer!!!!!!!!

Weekends

These pictures are from finish to start because I have never uploaded pictures before so it is a learning expierence that is why it goes from finish to start instead of start to finish.

So some weekends are funner then others obviously but this weekend was a lot of fun. I got to watch a friend get a perm (which the hairstyliest just wasn't listening very well). I think that it turned out well except when she blow dried it. It really stated to poof out. Then we went to go get her a tattoo so that she could catch up with me. Since you know I have three and right now she only has one. The woman that was going to do the tattoo thought that it could be cooler if she had some time to work on it and make it better. Once she gets it on tuesday she will be closer to me having 2 instead of just 1. This weekend was great so far. It was a learning expierence when it comes to perms. I makes me want to grow out my hair to go have it permed in loose waves.

Shortness

Short posts are my calling today this evening. I need to blog about Bills work and vent slightly. I'm tired of Bills boss!!!! Bill is getting so worn out and working so much that he is working consistently 50 to 60 hours every single week with being on call every other week. I'm getting tired of him working so much the only good thing that is coming out of it is the paycheck that comes from all of his hard work. I think that his boss is a moron and doesn't know how to put together a route and doesn't realize that he has the best worker ever for him. So with that in mind wh0ever reads this can you please pray that God will help him find a new job or if his boss will quit or just to make things better at the job or even transfering up to Longview. I just don't know what to do and only God knows. So please keep him in mind for awhile. He is just so worn out that it is just depressing t0 see him and talk to him because I hear the wornoutness in his voice and the sadness in him. It is just hard for me to take.

The gross day...

Womanly exams are extremely ackward and totally out of anyones comfort zones. The reason for this blog is because I had one today. I have been having problems with my periods and since I haven't had a womanly exam for at least a year so duh duh dun. Today was the day. So it wasn't as bad as I was thinking it was going to be n0w don't get me wrong it was ackward but I actually laughed a lot and had as much fun as someone could have with those things happening to me. I found out that my doctor is going on a cruise to Alaska the week after me which was really interesting and slightly funny and ironic. Since I had a papsmear done and some bloodwork today she is going to test everything today and get back to me on Friday of this week or the early part of next week. Hopefully she will shed some light on what is happening to my body and if she can't then she is going to refer me a gynocologist. So pray for some answers for what is happening to me and why I am not ovulating and my period problem.

Australia

Going to a friends house to watch Australia. Now if you saw any of the previews for it but all the previews showed was all action. It so wasn't what I was expecting even Mama Griffith said the same thing. We couldn't even watch the whole movie I want to say that we only watched about a half an hour or even that. It turned out to be more a comedy then anything. It had a child narrator which was just more odd then anything.

If you haven't watched it yet just go into it knowing that it is more comedy then anything. It was a little to painful for me to watch the whole way through.

Reaction Speed

Know I have always wished that I could come up with cool sayings or with good come backs to every situation or even to just have my mind work perfectly and come up with odd stories and just craziness. I have a few friends that can do it all the time. It's amazing to listen when they talk and see what they are going to come up with next. I can occasionally do it. Where my mind and mouth are in sink. However what I'm good at is my sarcasticness. I can usually do that without a beat. John our new associate pastor of the church was over at Pastors house and he was in the kitchen about to get something to drink when he asked the Pastors wife if the last cup had been used yet. Without hesitating I jumped in and yes I licked it. He looked at me strange and was slightly horrified asking "really?" Granted that was our first meeting of him so I doesn't know me at all so he could have thought I was being completely serious. It was funny. Finally we told him that no it was clean and that he could use the cup. There are a few other times in my life where my mind and mouth work perfectly. Someday I hope that I get my imagination working again to where I can come up with really cool sayings or really exciting and creative stories.

Time

Time is a strange phenomenon don't you think. Today I was thinking only if I had the power to stop time like Jean Gray or Professor Xavier or even just slow it up or down it would be the most powerful and awesome tool to have at your own disposal. I would use it everyday. I would use it during week days to go really fast so that it only feels like I work one or two days a week instead of five and then on the weekends slow time down so it feels like a weeks worth of vacation in between the days that you work. You could go someplace and not have to worry about taking time off from work. You could stay home and clean the house but only have it take up a quarter of the day as opposed to all day of your two day weekend. Time could be our ally. You could do everything that is needed within your own time frame.

However, time is only what you make it to be though, unfortunately, but we can always dream.

The Invention and Discovery of The Light Bulb

Ah, the discovery of the light bulb. Historians have always told us that Ben Franklin created the light bulb but they lied. The truth has been hushed up for many, many years. Almost everyone that knows the truth have almost died out so here I am to tell the tale of how the light bulb came about. It was actually created before the time of Ben Franklin really before to many people were here on the planet. Electricity has been around for ages. The cavemen for example spun wheels around and around on rocks to create electricity and then harnessing it in wire cages that would shine of there brilliance lighting the rock walls so that they could draw there pictures of light. Historians never wanted people to know that light was created back in the day of the cave men so they erased there drawings off the walls of caves. Later, it was thought that the Romans thought of it and created the first actual light bulb, but it wasn't the Romans either. It was a lone mad scientist that created the first light bulb. Yes a mad scientist from before their were cavemen! This mad scientist, who's name I can't confess to you because that would put to much information into your hands, therefore threatening your way of life and existence, was born into the area of Kadesh. If you don't know where it is that's fine enjoy the unknowing bliss that comes from it. Kadesh was in a mountainous land. Many trees, mountains, snow, and rivers. This mad scientist grew up looking at the waters of the rushing river and thought if only he could produce something that would light up his camp and houses of everyone near him. He began like any mad scientist. Inventions made with wood and rope. Of course that wouldn't work because a current couldn't go through it. He then forged metal into a long thin line and wrapped it tightly around a tree. He then made a water wheel then would turn as the river rushed by. He tied the metal to the water wheel and voulla then became the first bit of light. The next thing that he, the mad scientist came up with was glass. Which that will be another story. He put a glass shield around the wire so no one could touch the wire and electrocute themselves. So there is the story of the light bulb. It wasn't Ben Franklin like historians wanted you to believe but it was that crazy mad scientist that could do anything.

Now the true story is slowly fading away but never fear the truth can never be covered up!! It is resilient like peoples lives. Pass on the truth don't let it die out!!!

Work and Vacation

So I said that I would write of funner blog next so here it is. Renee who I work with is constantly talking incessantly about her near future trip to Las Vegas this Friday. The loser. Just kidding. Whenever she talks about that I instantly think about my 2 trips in the upcoming months. I almost can't wait.

My mom sent me an e-mail about all the things that you can do off the cruise ship all the excursions and what not. It was fun to look at however very expensive. I love cruises but they are expensive. The things that we are looking at doing are being on the Alletian Ballad (Crab fishing boat from the Deadliest Catch), a train ride through the Yukon, and looking at some much fun glaciers of Alaska. I was looking at all the options today during work. It was thrilling.

Nothing exciting has happened lately in my life besides the fact that tomorrow Bill and I are going to apply for Passports so that we can enter into Canada on our trip. That's about it. I really need to start making things up so that I can have a much interesting life.

Here how's this...I really don't work in a bank. I'm really a spy for the English government. I'm a SAS operative and I'm here on the coast to look into the laid back style of the coasties. Soon though I'm going to get called back to the mother land and take my findings and my husband that I forced to marry me 4 years ago so that I could stay in the country back to England where I will hold him hostage until the day that I grow tired of making him hang out with me and from being my man slave. However you won't know when I go because it will be in a blink of an eye and I'm gone never to been seen or heard from again from anyone!!!! dun, dun, duh.

Nothingness

You know when you get the feeling all of a sudden of not being able to snap out of it. I'm there. I've been trying to get myself out of this mood and this line of thinking because it's not very healthy for me but every time I try to not think about it something comes up and I'm thinking about it all over again. The only rest that I'm getting from not thinking about it is when I'm watching my countless movies. Which by the way I'm finally getting tired of. Never thought that I would say that ever. I have been systematically going through all of my movies not watching one twice for the past few months and now I'm down to the movies that are good but that you have to be in the mood for therefore I'm forcing myself to watch these movies thinking to myself only if I can fall asleep during it it would be worth it. Now watching these movies are the great distraction of my life however when something painful or bad happens when I don't want to deal with it. Therefore right now is that time. I however need to get back to praying and reading my bible and take my focus off of the good things and start putting my eyes on something far more rewarding and good.

I'm truly sorry for my boring and slightly depressing blog today. I write a funner one next!

4 Day Weekend

So I thought that my perfectly planned weekend was ruined when Bill and I couldn't go up to camp but in fact it wasn't ruined it was just perfectly great. Now don't get me wrong I am sad that I couldn't go up to camp and play in the perfectly great, cold snow but this weekend turned out a lot better then I could have hoped for. I started out this last week depressed. One reason I really needed to go on a date with Bill and then when that got ruined because I wasn't looking at the time (The restaurant was closed by the time we got there). It got postponed till the next day. It turned out terrific. It was a wonderful date. Then there was the start of my 4 day weekend. Friday started off with me driving down to Tillamook to drop Bill off and then I proceeded to buy many movies from Fred Meyers. My favorite past time. Ruining into a friend, buying movies for myself and Bill, and then finally buying much needed birthday presents for 2 special kids. It was a fun day. The movies, I know you want to know, I got PS I Love You for me, The Rock for Bill and The Closer(TV Series) for Bill and I. I love all of those movies.

Saturday we stopped back by Fred Meyers because the pants that I got for Bill didn't fit and we couldn't find any good looking ones that we wanted so we bought other things instead. You guessed it more movies. I have a sickness I know. Bill bought me the Jurrasic Park Trilogy and the Back to the Future Trilogy. Instead of of bouquet of flowers he bought me a bouquet of movies. Then we took the dogs out to my parents house so that we could do our taxes and the dogs could play with there aunt (my parents dog). Taxes we ended up owing but it turned out fine. Then Bill and I went to Kinkoes got our picture taken for our Passports that we need to get. Finally on the way back home we called into Papa Murphy's to get our traditional heart shaped pizza for dinner. It was a magical night. Eating pizza and falling asleep to a movie.

Next was Sunday. We went to church and went to Snack and Yak which the church puts on and we got our picture taken with a bunch of hearts floating around our heads. It was fun. Then Matthew came over and watched Music and Lyrics with us. If you haven't watched it, it's a must see movie.

Monday. I got it off anyway because you know I'm a banker. I was bored. I tried to take my dogs down to the beach but that didn't pull off because there were so many people of the beach. Not going to happen with my girls. So instead I went out to lunch with my mother in law. It was fun. We had a great conversation and laughed a lot. Then back home to watch more movies because for the life of me I couldn't think of anything to do. It was sad. Now I'm off to make dinner!!!! Thrilling isn't it.

Date Night

So, tonight is my and Bills date night. I can't wait. We haven't gone out and done anything by ourselves in such a long time that I am starting to feel the affects of it. I owed a date, due to losing a bet to Bill in the first place so I asked him if we could go on a date on Wednesday. Of course he said yes.

So came the arduous task of trying to come up with something to do besides dinner. While at work I was e-mailing a friend, Decaf Addict, and was asking her for any advice. I really didn't want to take him to a movie because that is what we usually always do so I wanted something different. Decaf Addict mentioned something about going to seaside and looking in all of the shops. Thinking about that led me to thinking of the arcade. So we are going to Lumberman's and going to the arcade after work. I am so excited that I can't wait. I want to take the day off to have a whole day date.

Summer

So my mom called this last week on the phone with a proposal. The proposal was to make our cruise that we were suppose to take next year to Alaska, move it up to this year, this summer. I was thinking that I would love to but Bill and I are already saving for Utah. My mom continued her conversation telling me that the Princess Cruise Line is having a 2 for 1 sale and that they would pay for us to go. They would pay for the room and then we would pay for drinks and all the extra things. I practically jumped up and down and wanted to scream. I couldn't believe that! I love my parents. Anyway, so I cleared my schedule and Bills and we are going in August. I am so excited to go Alaska. I practically have a love affair with Alaska because of the Deadliest Catch and some books that I have. I think that Alaska would be fun to either live in or vacation at. I can't wait.

Week 5

So this week I have lost 2 pounds!!!! I'm so excited for that. I am now 218! I am getting down there. I have added a couple of things to my workout that a girl that I work out with told me to start doing so I believe that that helped a lot. So I hope that I can keep up the two pounds per week thing up or maybe one day lose even more. Who knows.

Upset and Hurt

So I have a friend that is single. I don't have very many friends that are single anymore, that are in this area, and he is extremely upset about the fact. For awhile we all thought that he wanted help to find a wife or girlfriend whatever you want to call it. So my friend and I decided to try to help and start, not really shoving him at girls but just letting him know that some girls were single and that he should go and talk to them. Now he got tired, annoyed, and upset with us telling him about the girls and trying to set him up but he never told us that we were told that from his sister in law. Therefore we stopped telling him that he should do certain things or that he needed to talk to girls if he wanted a girlfriend. We dropped the whole subject.

So that was a couple of months. Recently I got my hair cut, yesterday, and the girl that cut my hair was also going to cut his later that day. When she was done with mine we called him up and told him to come over so that we could hang out with him and our friend doing the haircuts. He was upset that we kept telling him to come over to the house and eventually got his way because we were tired of arguing about it. He was very persistent. It was odd but whatever. Later my husband and I were at our churches snack and yak, when my husband leaned over to me and said that my friend and I needed to back off from him. Now at first I thought that it was because we were hounding him to come over to have his hair cut. My husband was like no, it's not that, it's that someone had asked him if he had met anyone exciting at the church that he went to that morning. Now that was when I got upset because I hadn't said anything to him. Now I wouldn't have so much of a problem if he told my husband that, I would still be upset of course, but no, it wasn't him it was his mother that told my husband. I found out from my husband that my friend had asked him it he had met anyone at the other church that he went to that day which she didn't do. This whole ordeal had me so upset and crying so much that I went to my friend and ask if she asked him if he met anyone. When I got her on the phone she said no that she hadn't seen him or talked to him recently besides when we all were about the haircut.

She is much better then me with the whole call the source and ask him what happened and confront the problem. Me I hate confrontation and I avoid it at all costs because I tend to cry to much. I do notes.

Therefore, she called him and they talked through things. I guess it was just a misunderstanding taken from his mother which she passed onto my husband which started the whole ordeal. Finally I slightly calmed down and wasn't upset with him anymore. Really it wasn't upset it was hurt well it was a little of both. I became really sad and hurt at his mther by her words and putting my husband into the middle of it.

Now I understand mothers to the point that they get hurt when they see there child hurt and if that child is young enough to say something to maybe the parent of the other child that hurt them but as soon as that child gets old enough to start working out his or her own problems they need to keep there mouth shut. I really like his mother but she is too protective. He is 26. If he has a problem with something that I have said to him or if I have hurt him somehow then he should tell me that not his mother. It is his responsibility. If the mom can't wait or can't control herself then she should actually tell me face to face instead of going through my husband!

I am very hurt to the point that I have to say something usually I can brush it off and slowly get over it by watching a movie or maybe a few movies but this has me all twisted around, hurt, and up at 1 in the morning that I am going to write her a note. Like I said it's easier for me to write a note and cry during that then to tell her face to face and cry. I don't like crying in front of people. To me it shows weakness. Crazy I know, I am!! I am sorry for those of you that actually read all of this. I'm venting, I know, but I just had to. I really like his mom so I don't want this bad air between us at all.

My husband has been good through this and let me cry on his shoulder and yell at him. Which I apologized to him and said that I wasn't yelling at him I was yelling to him about the situation. He felt awful of course because he is just in the middle of everything. He didn't want or have anything to do with it. Poor guy!

Anyway, I am done with my super long tale and vent if you read the whole thing then the ironic, good thing about waking up at 1 in the morning is that I worked out already for today. (Laughing).