Tuesday, May 31, 2011

Good News

So for everyone that read my previous blog. I called DHS and we had an appointment for today at 9:00. We met with Pat and she didn't realize (I think forgot) that we had the application, as well as having been through the class for foster parenting. Yay for us. We turned the application in, got fingerprinted, got sent home for a few more papers to fill out, and we should have our homestudy done sometime in July. She also asked how many children we wanted (2) sibling set hopefully and the ages we would take (0-5). She also put us on the list for emergency placement. So in that case emergency placement would be if they couldn't find family or they just need to get children out the home fast.

They are changing the way of doing things and are focusing on get the children back to family instead of adopting them out so considering we are going to be fostering to adopt we will definitely need more prayer to keep our strength up if we have to give the children back. I am going into this entire process knowing that we might have to give them up but that I'm hoping that we have made a difference in there life and touched them in a positive way.

I had such anxiousness and nervousness about today. I didn't know how it was going to go or if we would receive good news or bad news. I have been anticipating today for a very long time, wondering what it would be like, how it would go, and if we would do ok. We still of course have a ways to go and some more steps to go through but we have the process started and I am stoked about it finally being here. We need to think of things that we need to get as well as what we are going to do once we have children in our midst. The hard thing is though I don't know wahve age to plan for. I think once it comes we will be buying whatever we need to it will be an expensive day. I'm also trying to decide if I should keep working at the bank or if I should find something part time so that I can be with the children and then only have to have them watched 2 days of the week. So many decisions and so much for Bill and I to think about. Please keep us in your prayers.

Friday, May 20, 2011

Wedding



Tonight Bill and I went to a wedding of some very close friends, family really. It was wonderful and it was so nice to see them get married. Who knew that it was going to happen so fast. However it is amazing that when God brings two people together that fit so perfectly that it doesn't matter if they wait a year or a week. They are just perfect for each other!!!

Thursday, May 19, 2011

Life Changing Event

Yesterday I had a life changing event take place. Sure I have decided recently that I have wanted to change but I didn't know how. The meeting that I went to yesterday taught me how to change. It was unexpected that it was going to happen but that is how things happen usually. Unexpectedly. The meeting taught us that we continously talk down to ourselves (Not everyone but a lot of people), which I knew but that we can change that habit and eventually it changes our subconscious mind and then our creative subconscious. It was mentally challenging and great all at the same time. Part of it was writing down our goals any goals that we have. If it came to our mind we had to write it down no matter what it was because we can do anythingwe set our minds too. So I of course wrote down a ton of goals because I have a lot of things that I want to do.

My top 5 goals right now are Children, Play Ukelele, Travel, Be a size 8, and lastly take a photography class. Then each day I'm supposed to write down a to do list to help take one step to get me to complete my goals.

Today my first on my to do list was make a phone call to DHS. For those who know me calling people and having to talk to them is something completely out of my comfort zone. Also actually taking charge of anything I completely shy away from it. At lunch I made the phone call. I didn't feel nervous. I actually got the person that I wanted to talk to right away (She was there). I told her my situation. She told me that they have a woman for the job of adoption person but she didn't know when she was going to take the position. But that we could start out as fostering with the intention to adopt. I told her that that was fine. She asked me that I could drop in or we could set up an appointment to come meet with her and drop off the application. Yay!!! I told her an appointment because it always seems that no one is ever there that we need to talk to. She also said that we needed to take a 30 hour class for fostering. I told her that we had done it already and she said that we needed to come see her immediately!!!!! So our appointment is set for the 31st of May!!!!!!!!!!!!

Life changing events!!!

Sunday, May 15, 2011

Marriage Weekend

I would say that Bill and I have a pretty great marriage. We fight but only occasionally and we never let the sun go down on our anger. However there are the occasional times that I believe that we are just more friends then husband and wife but those are just feelings and they seem to pass by very quickly. It didn't help that during those moments it was because Bill was working between 10 and 14 hours per day and so seeing him was slim to none. Bill has since then switched to 8 hour days, 5 days a week. I actually get to see him home. I get to make dinner and not have to have him reheat it before he eats. I've been experimenting with food and different recipes. For those that know Bill, that is a huge step. We've felt closer is what I'm saying.

Our church this weekend though put on a marriage weekend. We watched a dvd of a pastor talking about marriage and about the applications of being married. It was completely well done and very interesting to watch. It opened my eyes to things that I never really thought of. I always wondered about the verse saying, "Men love your wives, women respect your husbands." I never understood that. Why didn't God command us also to love our husbands and husbands to respect their wives. Watching the video and going through this class opened my eyes to what that verse actually means. Women honestly and wholeheartedly loves her husband without waivering. Whereas respect doesn't come naturally. Men can respect men and women very naturally whereas they find it hard and not natural to love. Therefore that verse comes into play. My doing things without even thinking about it was very disrespectful to Bill. I never realized it and never thought of it in those terms. It opened my eyes for the better. I'm trying to watch what a say and how I act towards Bill so that I don't disrespect him.

I love how the speaker was completely funny and spoke the truth at the same time. Things that I have always takening advantage of knowing but at the same time never thought of. Women love to love. We wholehearted love everyone that we can, children, family, friends. We do everything we can to make our homes the best homes we can. Men though would die for us and provide for us. They feel called to work. Those last two sentences are so key. I have known that it was the truth but it was mind blowing when he said it out loud and multiple times making it really sink in and knowning that Bill would do anything for me including dieing for me. I have never thought of it that way and knowing that it is such a huge weight and relaxation on my soul. To have someone love me that much.

All I can say is that I love Bill and I love him with all my heart and I will try to do everything that I can to respect him in the ways that he wants.

Friday, May 6, 2011

Dinners

So this is the first month ever that I have actually sat down and made out a schedule of recipes for dinner every day for the month of May. I went through all my cookbooks, I have some great ones. I have "The Silver Spoon", "The Kitchen Bible", "Better Homes and Gardens", "Miserly Meals", "Fix It and Forget It", "Chicken", "Farmhouse Cookbook". They are all wonderful. My favorite though right now is "The Silver Spoon" and "The Kitchen Bible".

So far this month I have made Potato and Parmesan Cakes, Enchilito, Pork Roast with Orange, Macaroni and Cheese (a new recipe it has me cooking it in the oven), Bacon and Potato Pie, and Honey Mustard Chicken.

* = Star

Potato and Parmesan Cakes - **** The only thing that would make this better is bacon. It was excellent though.

Enchilito - *** It was good as well. Very interesting it is a cross between a burrito and enchilada.

Pork Roast with Orange - ***** Phenomenal. This is the best recipe that I have tried so far.

Macaroni and Cheese - **** Very Good. It was different. I have never baked macaroni and cheese before and it turned out good. I really liked the crust

Bacon and Potato Pie - **** It just sounded interesting from the beginning. It's Potato, Bacon
and Egg. You bake it in the oven and it turns out like a
quiche with a twist.

Honey Mustard Chicken - *** This would be better if I used a smaller pan so that the chicken
could soak in the juices and soak in more of the flavor.

So far those are the only ones that I have done but they have turned out very good. I am very happy with Bill that he is trying every single recipe so far and is eating them. He hasn't liked 2 of them but that's ok he at least tried them. I will try my hardest to take pictures of the meals that I'm making and post them. If anyone wants any of the recipes that I have on here let me know.

Thursday, May 5, 2011

Jury Duty

I've been called to Jury Duty once again. Really this is my second time with being called and actually able to go. I've been called 4 times total. I'm glad that being called for Federal you absolutely can't get out of it unless you have a very, very good excuse. I had such a wonderful experience and I love doing it now. I had to go out to Portland, stay at a hotel, and then go to the Federal building. I was actually called to be on the actual jury which was so nerve wracking at first. It was a civil case that was an insurance claim. I learned so much about mold that it was creeped me out. I have shut off my brain and have tried to forget the information since then. The trial was very interesting though it was completely different then they show on TV. So many different behind the scenes events that I have never known. It's amazing and so powerful feeling being on a jury. You get to decide someones fate. You get to make decisions about what happens to them.

Recently I'm in the county's pool for the month of May. I was called in this week earlier to maybe serve on a trial that was about to take place. Before getting started the judge gave all of us the definition between Civil and a Criminal case. I never really thought of the difference between cases that people serve on. I also thought that it was the proof that you had to have to make a decision but it is really how much proof is presented in what kind of case you are on.

Civil - You just have to have a preponderance of the evidence to make a decision. You just have to have some proof to make a decision.

Criminal - You have to have to be absolutely positive that a person did the crime. No reasonable doubt what so ever with the evidence that was presented.

The case that I was just at the beginning apart of was a criminal case. It was an attempted strangulation. As I was sitting there I could feel my mouth drop open and my eyes go wide. I've always just heard about crimes and scene crimes on TV but this became very real to me. This was looking at the guy in the eyes and knowing that he might have done something so horrible. He had to turn around and look at everyone in the room to make sure that we didn't know him. It was, for a moment extremely ill feeling as his eyes went past me. I don't know if he did it or not I was excused before the trial started but I'm definitely wondering if he was guilty or not. It was a very surreal experience. I'm hoping to get called a few more times so that I get to have even more experiences but you never know whats going to happen in the next month.