Purpose

I want a purpose for my life.  I have always just wanted a purpose in my life.  Growing up I never knew what I wanted and never knew what I wanted to do.  When I married Bill my dreams slowly morphed into wanting a family.  That didn’t happen.  So slowly I lost my way.  I’ve lost it completely.  Every now and then I get close to finding my way back and then I get derailed again.  Apparently it’s not that hard to get derailed.  It’s so much easier to get sidetracked and drop back into old ways.  I know that for a fact.  I’ve been working out off and on since I was 18 and just this last month I have finally found a routine but I know that I have to keep up with thinking about it so that I continue it and not stop.  So for life I need to find a routine that works.  I need a purpose.  I don’t know what it needs to be though. 

It is so hard to think that the last 7 years of my life has been exactly the same.  I do mean exactly the same.  It is really, really, really, really starting to bother me.  I need to find a way to change up my life and find my purpose.

Finding the first step to finding my purpose would be only through…Prayer.  That’s where it starts.  However the waiting for the answer is so hard and usually so long but it is worth the wait.  It is something that I have to keep in mind at all times.  It is WORTH the WAIT and it will always be better then I could ever think of.

I found a quote that I love but unfortunately I forget it frequently.  It says “Disappointments are just God’s way of saying: “I’ve got something better”. Be patient, live life, and have faith.”  I love this quote and it brings my joy and peace whenever I read it.  I just need to write it down EVERYWHERE that way I don’t forget it.  

I NEED to start praying on a daily basis for myself.  PRAYER it's what it is all about.  GOD will help me find my way.  He's the only one that can.