There comes a time...

There comes a time in a persons life that they just need to stand back and survey their life that has passed them by. To remember all the things that they have done while they were younger and to examine what they are doing with their life right now. To see if they need to change something to make their life better. To please someone else. To let things go and not let it triumph over their spirit. To not let their life pass them by. I am standing at the cross roads right now wondering what step I'm supposed to take. To let things crumble around me or to stand firm and break my way through. I know what my mind is telling me and I know what I'm heart is trying to say but which do I take. The answer is there, follow my heart but my mind won't let me. My mind is stubborn and saying things will be fine which in a way they will be but when. My heart is saying to look to the only person that is and always will be there but I don't know how to anymore. I'm finding it harder and harder to look only to what is right in front of me instead on the mountain that lays before me. I feel myself drawing into me. Wrapping myself in a web of feelings instead of the goodness that is before me. Why do I do this? Why must I always look at the mountain? I have a great life, a wonderful husband and friends, amazing life memories and stories. Why this obsession holding me from being as happy as I know that I can be. One day I hope to find it out sometime I just don't know how to ignore my mind and only listen to my heart.