The moments

The moments in life that take you breathe away,
The moments in life that make you think about someone that you love,
The moments that are more precious then anything,
The moments that soon become your greatest ally,
The moments in life that are to hard to handle,
The moments that make you cry,
The moments that make you laugh,
The moments that are made of love,

Every single moment, that's what your life is made up of will always make you stronger!

Ironic

It's ironic that when you are off Gods path and if you are having doubts about something. God is there in a sermon where ever you are and at whatever church you are going to, to tell you what you needed to hear most. God found me this last weekend at Danielle's church. It was really good the message that their pastor was giving that Sunday morning. It was all I could do not to cry in front of everyone. Avoid peoples eyes and just look down or ahead. Remember to blink. Was all I kept thinking about during the sermon to keep my eyes dry.

However that comes with a price because if you don't cry at that moment in time then you cry some other time at the most inconvenient time. Like tonight. Everything building up and it came rushing out of me while I was walking down evergreen to get to a friends house to make fun of Twilight before we watch the next one. Yes, walking!! I got out of my car before evergreen and walked from there to my friends house because I was so mad at Bill. I couldn't stand being in the car with him. From then on it has been fierce crying until pretty much now. I got home from dropping off the movie (I definitely wasn't going to be sitting around there to cry) and immediately went to my elliptical for 10-15 minutes and then to cleaning the kitchen and my stove. It was everything that I was worth to get the spots off my stove but by golly they came off. I like the way that I can now instead of going to the refrigerator go and doing something better for me. I don't wallow in the bad way anymore like I tended to do in High School and right out of high school I do something more organized and iconic, something with structure. So my house is very clean now hopefully it will remain that way for a long time. We'll see. I'm forcing myself to get more energy and not just laze around the house while something needs to be done.

I'm sure the ironical things of life will keep on coming. It will be interesting to see the way they come.

Ahh, The Information you can get from the internet

So thinking about the fact that I have hypothyroidism and that even though I can work out everyday and not see results beyond a certain point had me questioning many things. I thought about making an appointment with my doctor but I constantly forgot to call so I decided that I was going to try looking up hypothyroid diets. The do's and don'ts of what not to eat.

Horrified at what I found that I shouldn't be eating. I have to change everything that I eat pretty much. Goodbye carbs!!! Adios sugar!! Addveterzen dairy products!! Arrividirchi potatoes!! Aurevior pasta, desserts, sweet potatoes, regular, potatoes, meat, bread, white flour, rice, whole grains, fruit with high sugar content!!!!!!!

Okay I'm not sure about most people but that limits pretty much everything that I eat on a regular basis. However I'm going to be sane and actually try it out. Not eating those foods (well the meat I'm sorry but I have to have the occasional hamburger otherwise I really will die!!) I'm going to see if it works and I start losing more then the 5 lbs and actually get under 200lbs!!!! It is definitely going to be a struggle but at least hopefully it will be a good struggle!! Wish me luck. I'm definitely thinking like an atkins person right now!

Halloween 2009

Bill as a car salesman from the 1970's. Isn't it fabulous!!!

This is me as a mobster for Halloween!! I loved the gun but most of all I loved the fake eyelashes!!!

My Vacation..

I had Thursday through Tuesday off of this last week. It was such a blessed occasion because I didn't have anything planned besides cleaning my house which only halfway got done sadly enough. Everyday I hung out with Mama Griffith, Decaf addict missing her caffeine, or Bill. The last day was almost the best because I stayed at home and just crocheted and watched movies. (Not to say that hanging out with Mama Griffith wasn't fantastic either but it's different) I went shopping, dressed up as a mobster for Halloween, played with kids, went out to lunch and breakfast, went to the beach and had a picnic, and watched biggest loser. It was the nicest vacation that I've had for awhile. I love going places, far away places don't get me wrong but the packing is what gets to me and the driving. It was nice to sleep in and just be here at my own house and create my schedule again. I hope that sometime soon I can do it again.

One of those days....

You know when you have those days and your day just starts off with a sign about how the rest of the day is going to be like. Mine wasn't like that. Not today anyway. Mine didn't hit until I was at work and the little things started. Forgetting something that I was suppose to have and I left it across the room, having to unlock and lock the same cabinet 3 times because I forgot something else. The major breaking point was this evening when the head people called our branch and freaked out at Patty and Becca. Seriously they did nothing wrong. The people that called can only blame themselves for the fact that communication in the bank is their fault because they are the ones that decide everything. I'm so worn out by this day and the sad thing is that it happened in the last 20 minutes of my day but it has drained me and I'm starting to get a headache. Quite often I'm thinking of the days when I get to stay home and take care of kids in the future. Trying to squeeze out every penny to pay off our bills faster so I can stay home and the biggest thing I have to do in empty the dishwasher. Pray that it happens faster!!