Another Unfortunate Post

The last post that I did was a dark day we had lost our cat and unfortunately the next post that I'm writing is to tell everyone that we had to put down Pretty Girl.  About a month ago our we had to take her into the Vet's office because her mouth was bleeding.  We thought it was a bad tooth but it ended up being Mouth Cancer.  He cut out only 90%.  He couldn't get everything.  We then were treating the cancer with medicine.  The day that I left for two and a half weeks to Idaho Pretty Girl had a follow up appointment with Matt.  When I landed and checked into the hotel I got a phone call telling me that the Cancer had spread and there was no stopping it.  We had to make the hardest decision that we have ever had to make.  She was in such pain, barely eating, and she was just sad.

My history with Pretty Girl.

She was actually brought up from Louisiana with Bill's sister after Hurricane Katrina.  When the returned to their house after they evacuated they found her under their house.  They searched around to find her owner.  When they found her owner they said they didn't want her and she was a horrible dog.  When Bill's sister and brother in law moved up here they moved into an apartment that didn't allow big dogs.  So since they weren't able to keep her and so we decided to keep her.  I didn't like her so much only because she would run away and never come back.  That was the only reason why.  Once we got our fence up it changed everything.  She was happier and I was happier.  She was one of the sweetest dogs in the entire world.

 The decision to put her down was horrible and didn't come easily and I will miss her so much!!

A Very Very Very Dark Day

This is a very sad day for me and has been since Friday.  Batman, the cat has been missing since Friday morning.  I think that something attacked him.  We haven't been able to find him.  He was my second "child".  He was 9 and a half years old.  My baby.  I miss him like crazy.  He's the best cat in the world!!!

Training

Well...I'm at it again.  I have another goal.  Well more like two goals.  I know.  I know.  I seem to like my goals.  The last few I have actually been able to finish and I SO SO SO love the feeling of completing a goal.  So now I will get down to it. 

My two goals: 

1.  Run a 5k at the end of November.  (Hot Buttered Run) 

• Yes I am doing it for the Rum at the of the run.

2.  Run/Walk 150 miles by New Years Eve. 

• This one will be harder as I haven't done too many miles yet but I do great when it comes to pressure.   I definitely think that I do it too myself leaving things until the end and then work my butt off to complete the goal.  Maybe one day I might learn and spread my goal out over the actual length of time but until then I will just keep on moving forward.

 Well we will see how it goes.  I will let you know how the 5k goes. 

Words are meaningless

Words are meaningless unless you have the actions to back it up.  I have felt like a failure for a very long time.  I’ve also felt like I was a hypocrite pretty much for the last few years.  Words I’m finding are hard to find the truth in.  They don’t really mean anything until you put them into action.  “Live your dreams.”  “Live your faith.”  How do you do that though?  It’s easy to think about and SAY but to truly live it takes your breath away sometimes.  It makes your heart and mind struggle against each other to find the correct way to do it.  It takes a lot out of you to find the best way possible to make it happen.  With all things you do though you have to find a starting out point.  You should start out small, not jumping in right away fully to overwhelm your body and mind.  If you think about it in terms of exercising you don’t just go out and run a marathon your first time exercising.  You start slow; running as long as you can and build up to that marathon level of running.  So in practicing your faith you have to start with small goals, small steps.  I’m going to start small by praying and reading a chapter of the bible every night before bed with Bill.  We need to start it up again and sharing our faith.  It will bring us closer to God and closer together which is what we need, really what every couple needs.  Good luck to everyone in their own personal battles.  Remember…Small Steps.

Exercising

I have been working out for the last month and a half.  Every day except for Sundays.  It has been so nice and I feel so much better.  I can tell that it’s worth it.  Now my weight isn’t going down but at least I can feel my muscles starting to tone up and eventually everything will fall into place.  That and I love, love, love food and have a hard time limiting myself. 

The bad thing is when I go out and actually jog on the street all I can think about are the people that drive by me.  My self-consciousness comes out of me and I think of all the things that they are probably thinking.  

“She definitely needs to do that.”

“Good for her.” 

“Really…she’s jogging.” 

“She looks funny.” 

“Definitely good that she’s working out.” 

Now, I know it’s all in my head and I shouldn’t be thinking of such things but it’s almost impossible.  I just need to get over it.  I’m so self-conscious while I’m jogging though.  It doesn’t bother me at all when I just walk around but add jogging, it does something to my head.  However, I’m glad that I doing it and continuing on track.

Here’s to continuing!!!!!!!

Working Out

Well I have been working out for the last month and 5 days.  Bill and I went on vacation last week and I worked out everyday that I needed too.  I either jogged/walked, hiked, or rode a bike (which hurt - the seat was not comfortable).  I'm so happy that I didn't let getting out of my routine stop what I'm trying to accomplish.  I'm feeling more healthy by the day.  I'm hoping in a few weeks I will be able to jog the 3 miles to do a 5k if I so choose.  Getting excited towards becoming a step healthier.

Can't wait for Hawaii!!!!!  Only 2 months away!!!!

Ramping Up

Well, we got back from vacation and our yard work has definitely begun.  I hurt in places that haven't hurt for such a long time but our yard is starting to look so good. 

Beginning

 

Week Two

 

Now

Bill had the brilliant idea that the dirt we dug up would be the base of the raised flower bed in the back yard.  That way we don't have to spend very much on top soil.  I'm happy that he even thought about it.  I definitely wasn't.  My mind didn't go to the "where do we put the dirt" part.  

More pictures will follow of course.  We have 7 weeks before Bill's fathers surprise party and that's the goal that we are hoping to reach for our yard to look presentable and nice.